Like a blink of an eye

I just don't have the idea why I often feel this way, when it comes to night, staring my laptop's monitor, listening to music, and this thought will come all the way around.

Through writing I express what I think, what I feel..
I found out, somehow my blog, yes, it is my best mate, even though I've been treating it so bad, I update it with nothing, for like 2 months or so.

Well, as a young adult, there are times when I feel so lonely, down, broken, hopeless, full of responsibilities, it is truly heavy in my shoulders right here, especially because I'm a young man who will take care of my family, of the business, of my own future.
In some ways, I may be feel unfair how I found out I have to sacrifice my dreams, or even my decisions. Lucky you guys out there who can chase your dreams with fully support from people you love. :)

People change, so do I, my personality, my attitude, my thought, the way I talk, the way I act, the way I treat people, so on..
It's a 180 degree different with the old days back then..no wonder my face is getting old nowadays, hahaha..

I thought growing up was something that happened automatically as you got older, but it turns out, it's something you have to choose to do.
Within times, I'm able to realize that life will somehow throw rocks on your path, to realize whatever my decision is, more or less it will bring effect to the people I love, and I just don't want anything to hurt them.

Even fairy tale like Cinderella has to deal with the hard life before she met her prince

Well, "wise quotes" about life, yes, it is true, but have you ever feel that those quotes are just too impossible to make it real sometimes? Or perhaps I'm being too dramatic?

*sigh Hah, I don't know.

But, whatever it is, I try to be grateful each and everyday, 'cause I want to live my life to the absolute fullest. :)